truth

honestly, frankly speaking..

this is not a post about hatred.
and i hate to admit this.
but, well, i like my job.

so you hear me complaining sometimes? well people had their moments.
but honestly, i'm liking it. i want to be the best editor in the world.

oh, have you noticed that i'm terribly shy?
no? well, i covered it so well. i sometimes chose to be called grumpy or arrogant than just to admit that i'm shy.
this even bothers me.  bad bad habbit.
must change.

another thing.
i had failed. failed of being truly independent.
i am dependent after all. i depend on you.
phew.

that's about it. toodles.

irony

i sometimes hate after office hours, when there's nothing to do. nowhere to go.
it feels too quiet.

take me out.

until i'm tired and want to go home and sleep.
i hate going home alone and just watch tv.
i hate hate hate it.
>.<

i hate it when it's already 4 pm and still has no plan.
i hate it the most when it's 5 and i'm the only one in the office.
i hate it when it's 6 and i'm still clueless.

what makes people wanna go home early anyway?
i sometimes just hate it when i'm alone.
;'(

good news

I hate the fact that most of the times, bad news is good news.
A fire, flood, robbery, missing people, etcetera etcetera.

Sometimes I just don't wanna hear it. I only wanna hear good news.
That'll make my day brighter.
Make me happier.

Sometimes I just wanna live in my very own personal world.
woohoo.

the wake up call

it was this noon, during gossip time.
a dear friend just plain asked..
"so what's your future plan?"

slap.
i have none.

the bazaar

I always love to go to a bazaar where they sell lots of good stuff. And today I visited one.. It was very crowded and hot. But it was okay. I saw lots of stuff I wanted, but I decided to save my money. There's this bag I wanted.. but I have to think it through, since the bag was a handbag. It doesn't have a slingrope, so it'll be very hard for me to carry, especially when I ride ojek to the office. hehe.

I know this lady who opens a booth at that bazaar. She has this brilliant idea to take pictures of people who came to the booth.. not just a picture, but pics with famous people. We took pics with the famous Jacob of New Moon. Not because I'm a big fan, but because he's THE it guy now. haha. Just for fun.

Later on, we went to watch Avatar. Goodness gracious.. the effects were amazing. I somehow thought heaven would be millions of times better than that, but hell yeah, the panoramic set was pretty heavenly indeed. It was nice. :)

I coincidentally heard God Only Knows from The Beach Boys on the radio on our way home.

<3

circusauna

 
Despite the fatigueness I felt yesterday, I was super thrilled! We finally watched the circus! :)
It was a very local one, because it was actually a circusauna. We were sweating like pigs. Very very hot inside the tent. We took the utmost perfect time to watch the show.. NOT.
Sadly, I forgot that it was noon, at midday, which was very hot. And it was in a tent! Meaning, all the heat was trapped inside the tent. Oh well.. silly me.

It didn't lessen the fun though. Ok, before I tell you about how the circus was, I need to remind you that I am a very big fan of circus or freak shows and theme parks and so on, well especially circus. My final project while I was in fashion school was also about circus, a sorrow one but. I've watched all episodes of Carnivale and Cirque Du Soleil's shows in DVD. Saved pictures about circus. Drew several drawings about it, and so on. That's why I was super excited when there's one in town.. err it was actualy a bit out of town.

The show was quite fun. There were elephants, monkeys, kakatuas, and even tigers. The tigers were so pretty, like big cats with pretty colors. And there were acrobats, you know, people doing stunts and dances. All i could think of that time was.. they need better costumes. Please hire someone to design your costumes, dear circus management and owner.. >.<

After the circusauna, we went to a mall that has aircon. We needed aircon! pff. And of all restaurants, we picked Sagoo. A restaurant with an old time batavian decor. It was very nice. I like it a lot. But I think I was a bit lactose intolerant at the time, so when I ordered milk tea, my stomach went crazy. We then went home with me feeling a war happening in my tummy. And uber fatiguness, of course. I should've ordered plain water instead.. Loving the day, still :)

<3

groovy movie

Look what I got today! A Scarface t-shirt! It's a bit large for me to wear, but who cares..
And I just love the packaging :)

And I chose to rent this movie for its stupid title. Harr harr!